There is a new wind blowing. It’s been brewing for quite a while. Months, if not years. I have felt it circling around me, waiting for just the right moment. At times I have pushed it away, with force, saying, “I am NOT ready! It’s too much! Go away!” At other times I just observe, feel, and know that it is what is to come and it is perfect. My resistance grows weary and acceptance strengthens.
Even though I haven’t really known what IT is.
But it is blowing into my life is soft subtle ways. In a conversation with a friend. In the golden leaf that drops from the sky. In my dreams while I sleep.
And what I have come to realize of late, is that this “thing”, this feeling, this growing ….
I am awakening on a much deeper level.
It isn’t about an event or a new business venture or a new relationship. This thing that has been brewing in the back of my consciousness is actually ME becoming more of ME!
The realization has even been subtle. But I know now, that this is MY time to be who I truly am, and that is a glorious amazing beautiful talented kind open hearted spiritual human. It is time to LIVE as the ME that I was born to be, in all its beauty AND flaws. I have been put on this planet to serve a purpose, and up until this time, yes, I have absolutely lived it, had a semi-interesting life, and been a good person. If you had asked me even 3 years ago, let alone 20 years ago, if I would be at this point today, I would have laughed in your face.
But NOW … NOW is so important.
And it is not about DOING something, not about taking action or starting a new business thing (though this could all happen by default).
It is about BEING the strong, radiant, shiny, beautiful, gifted, conscious, spiritual woman that I am, and let that SHINE to the world. It is about opening my heart, healing my wounds, allowing myself to be transparent, being authentic, and accepting who I am.
Much of my life I have spent hiding. It hasn’t been easy, hiding takes a lot of energy. But I am ready to not hide and to shine even more. There are things I need to share with you and the world, in small quiet ways and in big LOUD ways. This awakening feels so special and different, and there really are no words for how it feels. But I’ll take it, and won’t give it back.
My words today aren’t to tell you how great I am or make you think I am some big super spiritual celebrity-seeking type. OOOH so NOT (especially if you know me in person!). I share my words with you to let you know that it is not JUST for me that this is happening.
It is also for YOU!
Do you feel it?
I’m sure you do, in some little or big way. And if not, there is nothing wrong with you, because it’s still happening. We are ALL waking up. We are ALL moving into what we are meant to be. And being there to hold each others hands is such a gift, to know you are not alone. I am blessed with a few special hands to hold. I hope you have some too, but if not, I am here holding yours, letting you know it’s all good, we can shine our light however we are supposed to shine it together. Yours might be wierd, mine might be downright oddball. But it’s OKAY and it’s GOOD. We NEED to shine.
Do you hear me?!
SHINE that freakin’ light of yours already!!!