(From a blog written in 2011 …)
Hello, my name is Jennifer and I am a recovering New Ager.
Yes, it’s been a long journey that started in 1996, but I have released it long ago. It served me well for many years, taught me a LOT. I would not be who I am without it.
But there is so much M O R E out there. I have grown beyond new age thoughts and ideals. It is my belief, and you can choose to agree with me or not, that the new age is discovered by many wounded, hurt, and searching people. Yes, I was a searcher.
Spirituality to me is a connection to the Divine. It is WITHIN me. It is around me. The Divine is within and without the world.
Doing my Spiritual Work, my Inner Work, means doing emotional work. Really looking deeply at ME, my past, my experiences, my past/future/parallel lives, my ego (that aspect of myself that causes me to make decisions based in fear and with the intention to hold me back), and then releasing parts that hold me back, sending it ALL love, allowing it to be what it was and how it served me up until this point, and letting it guide my future to make a better, joyful, passionate life.
In english, that means: there are days when certain people, from my past that I am no longer associated with OR current people I know, will come up in my mind. When they show up, it is usually connected to a negative, painful, or fearful emotion or feeling or experience. I look at it from an outsiders perspective, ask what gift it has to show me. EVERY experience or thought is my OWN CREATION. I asked for the experience to teach me. It might be a wonderful connection that makes me weep with joy, or it might be a painful event that I don’t want to relive. Despite what “they” may have done to me, on some level, I asked for it. That is a hard concept for some people to comprehend. But I deal with it and move on.
Doing my Spiritual/Inner Work also means I am consciously choosing to connect to the Divine (God, Source, All That Is) in all ways. Meditation (in my world that can be in many forms), being JOYFUL by doing the things I LOVE (being with my nephews/niece, reading, travelling, coloring, creating, cooking, being a foodie, listening to music, going to concerts, being with friends, and just doing fun things out in the world), and connecting with my guides/angels/my higher self/ME.
The end “goal”, even though it’s an ongoing process, is to release anything that holds me back from being the Divine, beautiful, powerful, amazing spiritual human that I AM.